I'm giving up on online dating like tinder, grindr and badoo etc...
I'm done, I can't take anymore. I always gets my hopes up and they are always shattered, my heart can't take anymore.
I match with people and chat with them a bit. I think it's going great and suggests that we meet up, sometimes they agree but after they'd agreed I'll get ghosted or I'll get ghosted right after I suggest that we meet up.
I've been ghosted too many times, we start off great but as soon as I suggests that we meet up it's dead silence. Nothing. Nada. Zero.
My heart is done. I've had enough. I will live alone and I'm perfectly fine with that, if no one wants me then fine, I will be okay in the end.
Another thing is that I live a pretty lonely life as of late. I spend most of my free time alone at home. I haven't talked to my best friends in a while. It feels to me that I need to be the one who keeps contact with them. It's always me who calls them. They never call me unless they have a missed call from me and I'm done with it, if they want to talk they can call me, I'm not calling them anymore.
As for being invited to things, I never get invited unless I ask if I can come and it makes me think that I'm not welcomed anywhere.
Maybe it's wrong with me as a person, my personality. Maybe I'm not that likeable as I thought I was. Maybe I'm supposed to be alone.
I think alot about who loves and cares about me, and I have come to the conclusion that no one cares about me and no one loves me. They all pretend so that I'm not gonna feel left out. I it's sympathy feelings.
Maybe it's just my mind twisting things or maybe I'm right. Who knows if it's true or not.
That's all for now.
